For I am his and he is mine...

For I am his and he is mine... You’ve never given me much Except tears and orgasms And at that some of my tears Were well because that’s all you could ever offer orgasms Everything was always my fault If I did or did not And now that I look back On all the fucked up And twisted years All I can remember All I can taste are tears I recall sleepless nights And crying all the time I remember all the times you needed You wanted Love, tenderness and compassion I gave it willingly Even after You left and you shattered my heart And like a dumbass I hung around. See I was almost over you Had it been one more week between phone calls I would’ve been over you But you called and you woke me Up out of my sleep Bummed out and crying You needed me Not because you really needed me But because I was the only one who could hold you Comfort you And Now I stop and think where were you When I really needed comforting All I remember is you saying yea yea are you done? Shut up stupid Oh my God are you done?!?! I don’t remember any of the good And If I think to myself I bet there was nothing good About a guy like you With a girl like me You never appreciated or treasured me. I admit it I’m wild, I’m stubborn, and crazy But I’m real with my feelings and love real deep I’m not ashamed of who I was Just shake my head at the choices I made But if I hadn’t made them I would never be me Your sole purpose in life was to show me How cold and cruel and dark the world and humanity can be I can choose to sit in darkness all of my life Or I can run as fast I can toward the warmth and the light I don’t need pity, my suffering has been of my own accord I don’t regret my past because it’s what I wanted… Once… But all I want now is peace and harmony I’ve never felt as free as it feels to be me I’ve hated you long enough. I need to forgive and be free. I dislike you and that’s all I can say When I look back it’s hard to remember anything at all It’s almost as though I never was in love at all The only man that’s right for me is the one I’ve never seen. He holds me all the time and he cherishes me He catches my tears and picks me up when I fall. He knows me more than anyone at all. And when I need him I know he’ll be there No matter how I disappoint him in times of anguish I know he is always there. To be a woman of Christ isn’t easy But he’s the only man worthy of being obsessed with People can say things ridicule me for things I’ve done. But I know he sees me and he loves me for all that I was and am. He believes in my present and opens my future. Nothing you can throw at me can break me again. For I am his and he is mine, the man, the love of my life. Jesus Christ.