The Challenge

We catch eyes

Pretend as strangers

That we know nothing of one another

Though we loved like it was yesterday.

And I turn and I run and run and run

On and on on and on and on

Ours is a past better left behind

Closed eyes

Tear drops fall

No one knows I know you well

You know me more

Than I ever want  you to know

And In my car

I drive and drive

Suck back the tears

Swallow the kisses, swallow the night

Swallow the passion

Swallow disdain

Choke to swallow the lump that shouldn’t be caught

Caught in my throat

The size of a softball

No one knows what a painstaking thing it is

To sunshine of the spotless mind induce

a lobotomy without actual surgery

done all on your own

where memories they play in your mind all day long

while your words long to escape

but are caught on your nashing teeth

as you desperately try to keep

keep it all iin

the name which is the very sin

bite marked tongue

lavished bites upon lip and tongue

holding your lover’s name upon tip of lips

nights lying suffocated  by the stench

of the rotting death

the death of love

of friendship , of the beginning of the end

each day it is the challenge

the battle waged

between heart and mind

mind and heart

where the film is played

while trying to refrain from recollection

fighting to refrain from uttering words

forcing forgetfulness into play

that is the sunshine of the spotless mind

the erasure

the closure

to rid your mind of what your heart says is real.